Or: I can’t stay silent any longer.
It’s 2019. Fascism, violent racism, mass shootings, and hateful rhetoric are all on the rise. The current occupant of the White House regularly attacks critics or “enemies” on Twitter, to thunderous applause from his supporters. In addition to all of that, I’ve been facing down a lot of personal issues: the breakup with my longtime girlfriend, a trip down the depression spiral, a job change, and much more. These are interesting times.
“But Ross,” you ask, “what does any of that have to do with The Twice-Lost Geek?”
Ideally, I began The Twice-Lost Geek as a way to talk about my passion for roadside attractions, oddities, and all things geek, but I feel it is irresponsible to not use my platform (as small as it is) to speak out against all of the injustices in the world. I want to start writing again, reboot the podcast, and be able to talk about all of the things I’m interested in or concerned with.
At this point in my life, I am more than a twice-lost geek… I’ve lost and found myself numerous times, and each time I manage to learn just a little more. In the past year I:
- Moved in and combined families with my last girlfriend and gave serious consideration to marrying and spending the rest of my life with her.
- Started what I thought was my dream job at one of the best cancer hospitals in the country.
- Gave up on The Twice-Lost Geek.
- Put my faith in God on hold for seven months.
- Cooked my own Thanksgiving dinner for the first time (this was a big deal).
- Thought that I was finally getting the stereotypical “happy ending” I had been wanting for so long.
- Broke up with aforementioned girlfriend and moved out.
- Went down a serious depression spiral and spent a little time at a hospital because I was actively suicidal.
- Clawed my way back from said depression spiral.
- Put my pride aside and reached out to family and friends and allowed myself to be completely vulnerable with them.
- Stepped down from my “dream job” at the cancer hospital, mostly due to depression and anxiety-induced inaction on my part.
- Found a new job relatively quickly.
- Reaffirmed my identity as a bi/pan person.
- Started going back to church, this time at an Episcopal church in my hometown. I love it.
- Felt inspired to re-boot The Twice-Lost Geek.
Yeah, a lot of things have happened. It feels good to get it out of my system.
Going forward, I’m not just going to be limited by the tagline, as catchy as it is. I’m going to be human and write about my struggles, share my victories, and campaign tirelessly against the spirit of hate that has so infected everyday life in the United States.
Won’t you join me on the journey?